Blog Every Day in May: Day 12

What do you miss? A person, place, or thing, a time in your life...

I know we can't go back in time, and I know most of the time I certainly wouldn't want to, but, if I could go back and spend maybe just one day at the end of 1999/2000 that's the time I would chose, that's a time in my life I miss the most. Being 19 or 20 years old, life stretched out ahead, anything being possible. Looking back it was one of the most carefree life changing times of my life. I had the energy to stay out all night, all weekend and go to class the next day. My best friend was just a phone call away. The week was all about getting to the weekend and having fun. Dancing all night long until the sun came up in the morning. Ever seen the movie Groove? Yeah that about sums up my life from age 19-24, chasing the beat and the thump of the underground sounds of the late 90's and early 00's SF party scene. Now, if someone today posted a picture of me back then I would swear up and down it wasn't me and find a way to take it down as quickly as possible, but I can't deny part of me misses the  carefree, self-indulgent, spontaneous me of yester-year. Jumping in the car on a friday night and coming home on a sunday afternoon, driving the coast from city to city, hitting the massive parties and the tiny undergrounds. Climbing down sandy hills to wide open beaches or up into the mountains where all you can see is stars and tree tops, music flowing out of a deck and a couple speakers. There's nothing like the feeling of meeting someone new, someone you may never see again and bonding over the music and dancing all night long. Hell, thinking about it now just makes me tired, makes me wonder just how blissfully unaware I was about the "real" world back then. But if I could, go back, just for a day, unaware that life gets harder, different, more complicated, sure why the hell not. I wouldn't mind making just one more memory. I am proud of where I am now, the adult I have become, I wouldn't(hell, I couldn't) change anything but that's not to say once in a while I don't miss the "good ole days."

Awe hell, I just made myself old.